Exhausted

… and not in a nice way.

I don’t know why it is, but ever since we moved house, I’ve not been able to stop and catch my breath. It’s been one thing after another. First, there was the new job. Then then move. Then we had no domestic help. Then we got that sorted, but had no one to iron our clothes and clean our cars. Now even the ironing seems to have been sorted – the cleaning lady says she will take it, get her husband to do it, and bring it back the next day; what could be better, we don’t even have to go anywhere to drop or fetch it – so life is mostly back on track. Other than the bout of viral fever that took three of us down in turns, the kids have been fine. And still…

It’s not so much about running at top speed just to stay in one place… that has eased up with all the domestic help getting sorted out. I even get to watch a couple of hours of TV every week, so it’s not that I never have any leisure hours at all. It’s just that I’m always so tired.

I mean, I’m always. so. tired.

I’ve never been one to have trouble falling asleep at night, so for me to be asleep five minutes after my head hits the pillow is normal. But to be struggling to stay awake that long, every night, for weeks on end… that’s not normal.

Some days, I wake up feeling tired. Not sleepy – most days I get close to 7 hours of sleep, so that’s ok – but physically tired. Yes, I wake up that way. My limbs feel heavy. I feel like I don’t want to get out of bed. For me, that’s not normal. To feel my legs aching, to want to sit down… that’s not normal. That’s the way I usually feel when I get my period – but I don’t get my period every day of the month! (And thank god for that!)

And to not have the energy to go for tennis – time after time after time? That’s just weird.

It takes me longer to recover from things too. It took me weeks to really recover from the viral in February. Admittedly I had it bad, but I’m used to just snapping back to normal in a week or so. Any other exertion – tennis, socialising, my period, a hectic day at work, a late night, or just about anything mildly tiring – wears me out, and again, I take days to recover from it.

I can’t understand why I’m like this. Is it the job? But it’s been three months already! Is it old age? But that should be a gradual process. Is it the functional dyspepsia I was diagnosed with some months ago and which keeps coming back sporadically? Is it the food I’m eating? Or the water I’m drinking? Is it the alignment of the stars?

Whatever it is, I wish it would go away. I’m not used to not having enough energy and I don’t like it.

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9 Responses to Exhausted

  1. Prakash says:

    Wish you a speedy recovery.

  2. poupee97 says:

    Prakash: That was lightening speed! I swear I had hardly clicked the Publish button when I saw your comment. πŸ™‚

    And of course, the question is… recovery from what!? I’m not sick…

    Ayesha: Thanks! I looked at it, and guess what? I’m already pretty good at numbers one through four. Number five… might take a bit of learning yet.

  3. Sadia says:

    Sorry. 😦

    I look back at my daughters’ infancy and wonder how I managed on so little sleep. I thought it was turning 30 that slowed me down (I need 2-3 hours more sleep now than 3 years ago), but perhaps our bodies are tied to our children’s development. Once they’re old enough to be more independent, perhaps our bodies slow down and try to recuperate from the previous years of sleeplessness. I know that Mrini and Tara are adopted, but I saw in my own mother that her physical connection to my sister (adopted) was no less than that to me (biological).

  4. poupee97 says:

    Thanks, Sadia, that’s a thought. You know, I never did have any sleep deprivation with the twins. They were already sleeping through the night, poor things. But yes, kids are kids and the way you are with them, as a parent, doesn’t (probably) change when they are adopted, so in a way what you’re saying could still be so.

    But I don’t know… it’s probably just a combination of old age, change of residence, new job. Oh, and the alignment of the stars. πŸ™‚

  5. Supriya says:

    Go for a full med exam. It may be something else. I am tired too all the time. Like all the time. But I know the reason. (Reasons. :-))

  6. Sowmya says:

    I agree with Supriya. Get a full check up done. I had similar symptoms and found out I had hypothyroidism. Don’t want to press the panic button here :). It might not be that at all and just the heat and all the work you have been doing the past month or more. Just be on the safe side though…

  7. poupee97 says:

    Supriya: Well, at least I know some of the reasons for your tiredness too. πŸ˜‰ How’s things?

    Sowmya: Sigh… yes, I suppose I should go for a check-up – but where’s the time? I’d prefer to think it’s just the heat and the work and old age. πŸ™‚

  8. Sowmya says:

    Hey Mika, Try multi-vitamin supplements/ cod liver capsules. If you still feel exhausted in 4-5 wks, you better go to the doc. Many hospitals and big labs have complete health check-up programs even on the weekends and you don’t have to be there long hours. half-a-day or lesser.

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